Erin Russ, SV Delos, delos, sailing, Erin Trautman

Hi! Welcome, and thanks for visiting.

I’m a writer whose work explores the intersection between identity, meaning-making, and radical authenticity. I believe that writing is one way to get to the truth of who we are so that we can become more genuine versions of ourselves—on the page and in the world.

I spent two years sailing across the Pacific on my boat, S/V Delos, before returning to shore to navigate the even more complex terrain of my own life. Currently, I am pursuing a graduate degree in depth psychology, which is deepening my fascination with the hidden patterns, inner conflicts, and emotional truths that shape our stories and our lives.

I live in Southern California with my partner and son. When I’m not writing or studying, I am spending time with my family, hiking on the trails near my home, or frolicking in the chilly Pacific Ocean. The same ocean that, years ago, taught me how to stop hiding and start becoming.

Becoming the Ocean is my debut memoir.

Becoming the Ocean: A Memoir (forthcoming in 2026)

To keep her world together, Erin had to stay small. To find herself, she had to tear everything apart.

In her early thirties, suffocating under the weight of a lie that has begun to unravel her sense of self, Erin sets sail with her husband, Brian, on a 10,000-mile voyage across the Pacific. What begins as an escape quickly becomes a reckoning. On the open ocean, there is nowhere left to hide.

Far from shore, Erin is forced to confront a painful truth: saving her marriage might mean losing herself.

Juxtaposing the awe-inspiring, boundless beauty of the open ocean with the claustrophobic, high-stakes tension of a fracturing marriage, Becoming the Ocean is a raw, fiercely honest, and deeply introspective story about a woman confronting the ways she has performed goodness, chosen safety over truth, and stayed too long in a life that no longer felt like her own.