Erin Russ, SV Delos, delos, sailing, Erin Trautman

Hi! Welcome, and thanks for visiting.

I’m a writer living in Southern California. My memoir, Becoming the Ocean is forthcoming in 2026. I also have a Substack newsletter where I explore some of the themes I write about in my book, like how the stories we tell ourselves to survive early-on often keep us from living later on, my journey from people-pleasing to wholeness, the ocean as transformation, and the long journey home to authenticity.

Currently, I’m pursuing a graduate degree in depth psychology, which is deepening my interest in the hidden patterns, inner conflicts, and emotional truths that shape our stories and our lives.

When I'm not writing or studying, I’m spending time with my family, hiking on the trails near my home, or frolicking in the chilly Pacific Ocean—the same ocean that, years ago, taught me how to stop hiding and start becoming.

Becoming the Ocean: A Memoir (forthcoming in 2026)

Erin thought two years at sea would save her marriage.

Instead, it launched her on an unexpected journey of self-discovery.

In her early thirties, suffocating under the weight of a lie that has begun to unravel her sense of self, Erin sets sail with her husband, Brian, on a 10,000-mile voyage across the Pacific. What begins as an escape quickly becomes a reckoning. On the open ocean, there is nowhere left to hide.

Far from shore, Erin is forced to confront a painful truth: saving her marriage might mean losing herself.

Juxtaposing the awe-inspiring, boundless beauty of the open ocean with the claustrophobic, high-stakes tension of a fracturing marriage, Becoming the Ocean is a raw, fiercely honest, and deeply introspective story about a woman confronting the ways she has performed goodness, chosen safety over truth, and stayed too long in a life that no longer felt like her own.